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22:15

pls never just ask me to list what kind of music i like or what books i like
like i love talking about music and about literature in a give and take conversation or like ‘oh have you heard so-or-so i just got into them they’re damn good’ but i cANNOT deal with just the open-ended question of ‘so what sort of music do you listen to?’ like i literally start sweating and forget every single song/artist ever st op
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words to live by /

21:24

for a boy:
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what girls are made of

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20:33

can we talk about how when you see a beautiful woman who’s with a less than attractive guy the thought is that she’s trashy or with him for his money or wow “score!” on his part
but when a guy is considered much more attractive than his girlfriend the there tends to be awe and reverence for him like he’s somehow charitable or automatically a phenomenally “good guy” for liking her for her personality
idk just a thought
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20:25

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20:22

at least once a day i have a horrible feeling of ‘wow i can’t do this i can’t handle independence i can’t handle myself i just want to cry to my mother i just want to curl up in my own bed and spend all day on my laptop i literally cannot do this i am not capable of this this isn’t what i should be doing this isn’t what i am get me the fuck out of here’
and then idk other times i’m all right
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23:59

going to very generously share this sandwich of wisdom with you all. are you ready for this. okay. eat many foods speak with sincerity don’t hurt bugs smell nice drink a lot of water wonder about all of the flowers in the world moisturize open windows sometimes be nice to yourself think about grass kiss a lot count stars take a bath read poetry to an animal or a child read poetry to yourself write up a list of reasons to be sad and fold it into a crane and set it free (fold a thousand and you get a wish)
sometimes people are kind of like fruit
goodnight
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11:04

i dont think it’s necessary to love yourself in order to love someone else but i do think it’s safer if you do
hating yourself makes it harder to love, it makes it hurt like waay more than it should, making it kind of difficult and terrible and even dangerous for you
self love in this case can be looked at as a bit like a bomb shelter
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21:17

u know whats pretty sad if i think too hard about it
ever since i was little the question “if you could have any superpower what would it be” has come up a lot and most kids have similar answers (the ability to fly, read minds, shapeshift, super strength etc) but mine has always been invisibility because ive always wanted so badly to be able to disappear whenever i feel like it and choose who gets to see me and when. the idea had the same comfort as hiding under a blanket like„if they cant see you then youre safe. i still wanna be invisible tbh
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21:03

don’t give up
just a bit more
a hand will come down
to pull you ashore
you won’t expect it
and that’s the best
and it won’t leave you
unlike the rest
the fight was worth it
you’ll see that soon
the caterpillar
has left its cocoon
it’ll keep on flying
till it reaches the top
it won’t look back
it will not stop
the fight was worth it
and now it’s here
a beautiful butterfly
that’s you, my dear
(a.k.)
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21:04

i will always be the person who went to the grocery store in cigarette-burned pajamas every day for five months
i will always be the person who wanted to die and didn’t
i will always be the person who lost twenty pounds
in one month and i will always be the person who gained it back
i will always be the person who decided, while crying
in the passenger seat of your car, to be better
i will always be the person who paused when you first said “i love you”
just to take the moment in
i will always be the person who survived the unsurvivable i will always be the person who fought like hell for it
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lord give me strength
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02:58

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02:54

do you ever just think about dating harry styles
like actually just coming home after work or whatever and seeing harry styles doing whatever it is he does and he just comes over and asks how your day was and kisses your neck and asks whats for dinner of if you want to go out and just
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02:05

the thing about telling people who are unhappy with their bodies to just “eat right” and “hit the gym” is that a lot of the time people who are already physically fit and beautiful by society’s standards or are dangerously underweight hate themselves and telling them to exercise isnt going to change that at all. surprisingly enough what is going to actually change that is NOT saying things like “just hit the gym fatty” and instead encouraging people of all body types to love themselves, because even if youre not fit you should still be deemed beautiful by societal standards and it’s garbage that youre not
stop giving people “easy solutions” to struggling with body image because they never work and youre absolutely doing more harm than good
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02:05

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01:10

what i never
learned
from my mother
was that
just because someone desires you
does
not mean they value you.
desire is the kind of thing that
eats you
and
leaves you starving.
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01:07

science says
that no matter how close you get
to someone
you still cannot occupy the same
space as them
I think of the nights we wasted
pressing our skin against each
other so hard that we bruised
our bones
I think it can’t be true
that the closest I’ll ever be to you
is beside you
it is not enough
I hold my hand to your
chest
and watch it float on the calm
waves of your breath
There is not enough time
to love you the way that I want to
the universe may expand infinitely
but I am not allowed that same
luxury
I cannot become the sky.
You ask me what I’m thinking
and if it hurts
I say nothing
you ask me again if it hurts
I say
yes
yes
always
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23:51

Who you are requires no thought. We use labels from experiences we’ve had to define ourselves, but in reality, even without those experiences, we would still be here. We would still exist, and we would still be. We are more than just the summation of the things we have and haven’t done. Even if I weren’t a blogger or a woman or a sister or whatever else I use to define myself, I’d still be “me.” Now, these things are so thoroughly ingrained in me it would seem as though without them I would cease as well, but as many people can tell you, all of who you are is not something you can classify by the means of words or language or mental understanding.
You are your awareness. That’s all. You are your consciousness. You are whatever it is inside you that realizes your reality and experiences things every day. Who you are does not direct your mind with thoughts, it is who experiences those thoughts. Your mind is nothing more than a computer, processing your human experience and, indeed, providing invaluable functionality for a human body. But that’s really it. It doesn’t do much more than that, other than fill you with irrational thoughts because your mind does not know like your soul does.
If you’d humor me for a moment and just take the time to acknowledge your awareness, you’ll reach a part of you you’ve probably never touched before. At this awareness, there is a sense of peace. You realize that everything that happens is not inherently good or bad, but that we assign connotations to it based on what we were trained to believe is acceptable or not. We realize that life is no more than an unfolding of experience that our minds contort with meaning in an effort to set up a mental obstacle course that we can overcome, and grow.
Realizing this was one of the most influential things I have achieved in my life, and funnily enough, it didn’t require anything more than just the ability to sit, be, and recognize my nature for what it is. Allowing myself those few minutes of complete focus on my awareness and nothing else showed me with great contrast how deeply our lives are crafted by the hallmarks of society, and how it will drive us all to misery if we let it.
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21:10

I used to think the worst way to die was in a tank filling with water, you know? Like in the movies? They keep banging on the glass or the rocks or wherever they’re trapped, and the water’s rising and rising, and at the last minute they escape? Well, if it happened in real life they wouldn’t escape. So I thought that’d be the worst way to go.
But then I realized… I realized that’s what we’re all doing. That’s life. We’re all banging on the glass hoping for something more, trying not to feel pain, trying not to drown. Everyone secretly thinks their life is that fairytale. That they’ll burst out and have something more. Maybe that happens sometimes. You know, every once in a while. Maybe not.
All I know is that my life was that tank, and it was slowly filling. When I was little, when I first saw Titanic and shit, I thought the worst part of that whole scenario was the anticipation of death. But I was wrong. It’s the anticipation of pain. Like, just waiting and pounding and pounding on the walls that confine you and getting more and more tired, and you’ve come up with a last resort. You know, you bang your head against the glass—knock yourself out so you don’t have to slowly drown. But that takes courage, right? Or maybe not courage. Maybe the opposite… like the fear has to be really strong. Either way, you have to decide when to give up hope that someone will rescue you or that you’ll be special and miraculous enough to rescue yourself. And relinquishing that hope… who knows? Maybe that’s more painful than the drowning itself. But it doesn’t matter. Once it’s gone, it’s not going to come back on its own. You’d have to fight for it, and fight hard, because the truth is just so persistent. And you’re not strong enough, not brave enough, not ready or willing enough for that battle. So you end it.
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10:43

there is a part of my mind and soul
that pulls whenever
i open a book,
a need
and desire
to dive headfirst into the pages,
to plunge and drink and chew
on its words and ink,
to come out feeling (something)
like my skin
has been changed,
beautifully stained
by the story.
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21:49

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21:45

i think we need to be talk about immigration for a sec bc too many people are ambivalent about this issue and too many more are indifferent and then there is a frightening number who actually insist that illegal immigrants are a threat to their happinesss
like wow is your life so fuckin bad that you have this need to see families broken up and lives ruined just check yourself and shut up about ‘border security’ and ‘real americans’ and please go find a large tree branch to shove up your ass
some of these people have gone through shit you can’t even imagine while you’re sitting on your ass concocting abstract ways in which one family’s happiness screws things up for you and thinking about how you can fuck with the lives of hard-working parents who have finally found some safety and stability for their children
and i mean it about that tree branch ok
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17:16

it kind of sucks that most people who are integrated into society spend the majority of their waking hours during the work week tapping their foot and waiting to go home so they can use the money they’ve made to buy goods and services provided by other people who are tapping their feet
like it’s just one of those sucky things you realize as you get older ya know you realize that most of the people you encounter when you’re out and about on a daily basis are just putting in their shifts and glancing at the clock i feel like there’s a better way or smth? who wants to join my hippie commune??
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