i’m really sad and ugly and i just want to have fun and be happy i just want life to be fucking good you  know? why is everyone having more fun than me??? why do i feel good during the day but then feel like my entire world is caving in at night??????? i suck. i want to believe things will improve/get more exciting but what if i just feel increasingly lonely and pathetic

why can’t i be like them?? ??? what makes me different/worse? why do i suck

is it stupid to think things will pick up/get better ?? what if things get better but i’m still me and i’m still woefully inadequate and thoroughly unhappy what happens then what do i do