0005
date: 2014-05-26
time: 00:05:09

i am not in love with you
but sometimes i wish i was
because maybe then i would understand
why when i think of saying goodbye to you
my stomach drops
because when you talk about leaving
when i remember that i will not see you for two years
my knees buckle
i do not know what love feels like
but i know that i am not in love with you
because we can talk about our favorite bands
but we cannot talk about our pasts
still
when i know that for two years
and maybe many years after
i will not hear your voice
i will not know what it's like to feel safe in your arms
my legs begin to shake
poetry /
